This morning I texted one of prayer team
regarding a feeling of anxiousness and restlessness. As a result of this feeling, I had been struggling with a quality quiet time. I mean, each day I would go to God and start my prayers, only to get distracted, frustrated and discouraged. It wasn't that I didn't feel I was getting direction from God. I mean, things are going pretty well these days. I have a full schedule coming up, my house was finally shown today, I am able to pay my bills this month, I have a wonderful place to live and an awesome car to drive. I am also feeling physically well. It was more that I felt full when I went to Him. Then it dawned on me...I need to be pouring out. I need to get back on the road. I need to share what God has been showing me the last three months. It was like a light bulb. I was like, OK, that is good. That is what is wrong. I am good now. But you know what, I still wasn't. Then, the prayer warrior I texted called me. She listened and gave me her opinion. She said, Kris, pouring out is not just about giving to others, serving and teaching...its also about pouring out to God through praise and worship. I had totally missed it guys. I am such a robot. Spend time with God, pray, learn and then go out and teach what I have learned.
Lord, please forgive me for not pouring into you. Please forgive me for wasting so much energy the last two weeks. I have been restless because you have been waiting to be praised. I praise thee Father, you are my all and all. Psalm 99:5 Exalt the LORD our God and worship at his footstool; he is holy.